I know it has. I don’t feel creative enough to make a layout or theme anymore. I’m busy and lazy. Grade 12, last year of highschool and I’m just trying to focus on school work while trying to give him time..
We broke up, thats it. He might want me back he doesn’t know. He’s confused. I went to a psychic last Sunday and this is what she said:
hes very veryyy confused, theres no other girl never has been and hes worse than i am, hes more broken hearted but all the girls his friends his coaches his teamates and everything are making him really confused and she talked about vibration levels? which is kinda like emotional levels is how i interpreted it so im really high and hes really low and in order for us to get back
together they saw(they being my spirit guides i have 3, the main one is a guy) him having to come up to my level, i cant go down to his, he knows im best for him and the main spirit guide said me to tell the young man aka dylan when im in a happy place and not desperate (aka today which i did) that i want to be there for him and hold his hand through this and work it out if he wants to and i want
the best for you but i have to do whats best for me right now, hes gonna do big in hockey, its hard for him to not talk to me, i gotta give him time and its gonna be hard, they see me as a hockey wife but depends on my vibration level, it has to stay up, i have to focus on him being his best self which is like the old him that i still love and know he can still be, they said he has a good heart he
hes not trying to use me, hes a really good guy. umm i have an old soul thats been around for a long time which is why im so focused, i know what i want (him aka) and why im so mature. i change my friends alot because alot of them arent at my like level (?) i guess so i keep changing my groups of friends b/c of that reason umm uni i will not like pharmacy and i get bored by sciences (true pretty
much) and i picked it because i get to help people, be my own boss, and own hours which is completely right for me but i gotta find it in something that has to do with hist, busi, or eng cause i like it, i used to write alot and i stopped and they said i need to start doing it again and get my emotions out but not hold onto them after i write it, im very creative and i should take writers craft
maybe over psysics they see me self employed and business w/eng? ummm writing is very good for me like really good. my moms gonna lose her job but we will be ok, me and my dad fight so much cause SUPER close on vib. levels and me and dylan used to be around each others and thats why we were so good together ummm the songs i always here over and over again is my guides talking to me, i should try
and find another job in something thats more creative like winners or a book store or something else, i need to put myself way more over dylans stuff. she said i need to say afermations everyday which is like positive sayings for me and i have two, my grades are gonna be fine and like finish this semester normal just change psycics really and bring more of my creative stuff out, she sees me going
away for uni but just somewhere too far to commute to, not out of prov. im done with highschool so another year isnt for me
him=aka the ex boyfriend.
So yupp. Changed what I want to do for uni. I want to go into a Bachelor of arts & business and undeclared year for my first year, but I’m thinking psychology possibly, maybe not lol. I don’t know, I have no idea.
Works giving me no shifts. Last week it was two, this week it was supposed to be one but i took someones shift tomorrow cause its time and a half. I’m going to talk to them, this is so fucking unfair to me, I need the money badly.
Guess thats it for now, I’m gonna look for a new theme to use for now since I’m not gonna lie, I won’t make one. Hopefully write something soon. I need to start writing again and I have been but on paper, not on here. I don’t know why but its different than writing on here. Peace.
