These probably aren’t that good, I just wrote them the other day off the top of my head while watching one tree hill season 4, but oh well here they are:
1
I’ve had my heart broken;
its battered and bruised.
but I still believe in love and all that it holds true,
just as though i’ll always believe in you
even after all you’ve put me through;
i’ll always believe in love and I’ll always believe in you

2
& you will never know what it feels like to be given up on, to be told you’re not good enough anymore, to be told you’re not loved anymore, until it happens to you

So much has gone in with me and him since the last time i blogged…
we havent been talking in about a month because of a huge thing that happened between us where he blocked me off facebook i deleted him off of facebook including the pictures of us together, and deleted him off msn.
The past two days i’ve been missing him. Today I just got this feeling that we are supposed to be in each other lives and then I texted him asking him if he’s been with someone else and said no why have you and I said no, which got us talking and stuff and I don’t know it wasn’t a big freak out talk but he said he didn’t hate me he just got really pissed off at what I did, which is understandable but I’ve said sorry more times that I have counted and i told him i hope he forgives me one day but i was kinda hoping he cared enough to say sorry to me too but he stopped replying back to my texts.
My heart was like racy and stuff yesterday and today before I texted him and now its becoming racy again. I don’t understand.. Is this some kind of turning point for me and him as a whole or what? I keep getting this feeling that he may not be over me and that he is just trying to still distract himself. He did say he knew how to get me back if he lost me, which he did lose me, I’m just still wondering if when his hockey is done for the season if he will actually attempt to get me back..
Man oh man I need to see that psychic again… and soon!

But in a journal. I dont have time to type up the latest thing at the moment, but I find that I write in tumblr a bit more now.. so if you want add me up! I need to find something that intergrates tumblr in here but i dont have time to search for it lmao. So for now here i am!:

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